Mental Runner

I try to follow the mantra "live in the present and not in the past" but the unknown scares me. So, I dwell in the past. It's not healthy, I know, but it's comforting. It's comforting and dangerous because that cushiony blanket of the past that protects me, keeps me from living the live I should be living. It stops me from being the person I could be, fabulous and all.

Found

There are times we lose ourselves in the process of trying to fit in and please everyone.

There are times we lose ourselves when we try to change who we truly are.ย 

Then there are times when we lose ourselves just because we do not know who we are.

Lost in a world where everyoneย is mainly focused on themselves, only a few are willing to lend you a hand on your journey.

But sometimes even those that we think are genuine, are leeches behind screens, sucking you dry as you move along.

My Love For You

Your love is wide like the ocean and full of emotion.
When you smile you make me cry because you are beautiful like the sun.
Your lips are blue like berries, my lips are red like cherries and without you, there is no life for me.

New Year

I know it's a little too late for a new year's resolution but I saw a few today and realised I've never done one. I've never planned what I wanted to do for a year or plan ahead for a few milestones that would make a world of a difference when I achieve it. So I decided to make one. It's not too late, right? It's still early in the year. So here goes:

My New Year's Resolution

1.Get a degree in anything really. I had started college in 2015 but had to stop in 2017 because I didn't have the funds to continue. I still don't but life goes on. My mom had 10 children, I'm the 8th, the 9th died and the 10th is who I need to prove that there is more out there. I'm the first in college, and the first that was on her way to being an undergrad but they just didn't have it. I somehow feel like I failed them.ย